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Sunday, January 1, 2006

Dear C-boy

January 1, 2006

Happy New Year son! Yes, my son, Caedmon. Lynette, your mother, has now been pregnant with you for 22 weeks. Our original plan was not to find out about your sex till you were born. However, your mother thought it would be such a wonderful surprise for me to surprise me on Christmas with the news. A few weeks ago when we went for her OB check-up, she had an ultrasound picture of you sealed up in an envelope. She had placed the envelope in a box and wrapped it up with Christmas wrapping paper. She had to wait all these weeks for me to open up the gift before we both found out you were going to be a boy! We laughed with joy that early Christmas morning. Our friends and family are so excited to know (they have been asking for several weeks). Of course, God knew at the beginning when He made you. Now that I know, I begin the great challenge of preparing to raise a son. It is somewhat scary and daunting as I think about it, but I am looking forward to it. I think about my life and my deficiencies. I never felt like my dad defined for me what it meant to be a man, but I believe he did the best he could and knew how to. I had to figure it out for myself and I made many mistakes, costly ones, along the way. He had other worries… such as providing for a family in a strange new country. He didn’t know a whole lot about what was going on in my life (mainly because I kept it that way), though he was a very hard worker and a great provider for the family. Perhaps it was the cultural difference between him as an Asian immigrant and me being raised in America. I kept him and the rest of my family at a distance because I wanted so much to “fit in” as an American boy. I never saw much outward show of emotions in my family, romance between my parents was never on public display. We always went to church every Sunday. We were blessed that they instilled a foundation of knowing God in us. With that, no matter how lacking they were and no matter what we felt we were missing in our upbringing, they instilled the one true strength they knew we could always rely on to never fail… the love of God. We (my younger brother and sister, who by the way are fraternal twins 3 years younger than I), were raised to excel in school and given the gift of achieving for ourselves in life something that my parents never had the opportunities for themselves. They, along with my 3 aunts, and paternal grandmother (we all lived together in the same house) raised us together, to give life to the lives that they never had… to fulfill the dreams they never knew they had or dared to dream for themselves. They did the best they could. My dad did the best he knew how. Now, I get to do the best I know how… except I don’t know how yet. But I do know where to begin, just like my parents did. In life, no matter what may come Caedmon, always begin with God. I can’t wait to show you and teach you about the mystery of God/Jesus/Holy Spirit. I am learning still about Him. It’s a new year today. I get the chance to rededicate myself to a closer fellowship with the Lord. Your mom, gave me a one year bible as a Christmas present. I plan on diligently going through it in the coming year. I have begun reading books on parenting and being a dad (so far I have read JC Ryle’s “Duties of Parents”, Robert Lewis’ “Raising a Modern Day Knight” and I’m currently in the middle of James Dobson’s “Bring Up boys”). Your mom is preparing too. She loves you and I so much. We are so lucky and so blessed to have her. Your nursery room is being prepared so lovingly. She is planning on so many personal touches. She is sewing your bedding herself. She’s been reading to you and exposing you to classical music. Books (ones she had as a child and new ones she’s bought) are being gathered for you. She’s picked out clothes for you, furniture, rugs, toys, etc. You are much loved. I’m beginning to prepare to know you. Proverbs 22:6 “Train up a child in the way he should go,even when he is old he will not depart from it.” I have quite a year coming up. I’m your dad. I’m going to teach you to love God firstly, to love and protect you mother, and to be a man… a modern day knight.
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